One
I cast my soul into the deep, dark well
of the night sky
It leaps with the thought of you, jumps
past the stars
And rummages in the space beyond
as through a cluttered closet
But its activity is from joy,
not for need
For there is no place
it does not find you
There is no sound that is not
an echo of your name.
When you know a person, you know them in sections, in bits, Delphy told him later. You assemble them from the first impressions, before you learn about them.
In Analyssa’s case, Matt knew her as beautiful before he spoke a word to her. Then, in the first speaking, she expressed a heart and mind of unfamiliar harmony. With these parts, the first parts, the first colors of the woman, he created the rest.
She was waiting for the bus at the end of the day on the sidewalk in front of the cafĂ© where Matt worked. She turned and pretended to read the menu posted on the window as she checked her face in the glass. The same lighting which caused the window to be so useful for reflection concealed Matt. The same event occurred the next day. The same eye checked the glass, a dispassionate eye, an assayer’s eye, an agent’s eye. A lonely eye. Not clouded or distracted by a need to find something flattering or a fear of finding something unpleasant. An eye only open to see what exactly was there. A judge’s eye. No debate.

